The feeling that the trains pass is not something so alien or pilgrim. It usually happens to every mortal who at some point meditates on what did not go quite right. The prospect can sink you or make you strong, it all depends on whether you are able to extract something positive between despondency and hopelessness. Something like a resilience about your own loss of life.
But of course, cases like those of Pepa, the protagonist of this story, are those objective cases of loss of life. It is human to indulge in the cause of a mother sunk in the loss of her husband, but the situation can become so absorbing that it ends up annulling the caregiver.
Narrating a life lost due to this misfortune extended from a mother to a daughter is a dramatic insight without equal. In the end, her mother manages to emerge from her depression, but her life seems to have vanished in the meantime of her mother's recovery.
If Pepa has made a mistake or if she really did what she had to do is the dilemma that appears to Pepa when the new scenario of time without dedication to which to surrender opens up before her like a hard emotional crossroads.
But it may not have all been bad. In that dedication towards her mother's recovery, Pepa has learned to fight and try to get the little positive out of a burdened life. For this reason, when she meets Crina, a woman who is a victim of the white slave trade, pregnant and completely annulled by her oppressors, Pepa gives herself body and soul to her liberation, in front of everything and against everyone. And in her new work, in the improvement shared with that new victim, perhaps Pepa ends up freeing herself as well.
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