Imiphefumlo yomlilo-Amagqwirha eZugarramurdi-

Ngasemva kwehashe lakhe, umntu ondincinayo wandijonga ngendlela emangalisayo. Ndibonile ubuso bakhe kwenye indawo. Ndihlala ndicengceleza ubuso babantu. Ewe, ukuba ndiyakwazi ukwahlula intloko yenkomo nganye nganye. Kodwa okwangoku kunzima ukuba ndikhumbule, ndithintelwe luloyiko. Ndihamba kumngcelele omkhulu emva kweSanta Cruz Verde de la Inquisición, ndingena kwisikwere esikhulu kwisixeko saseLogroño.

Ngepaseji eyenziweyo phakathi kwesihlwele, ndifumana umbono okhawulezayo okhupha intiyo noloyiko. Esona sihlwele sixineneyo siphosa kuthi umchamo kunye neziqhamo ezibolileyo. Ngokudabukisayo, ekuphela kwento eyenzelwa inceba ikwanguloo mntu uqheleneyo nomncina. Kamsinya nje akundibona, wafinga iintshiyi, ndaza ndabona ukukhathazeka kwakhe ngokundifumana ngaphakathi komgca oya eskhawini.

Sele ndikhumbula ukuba ngubani! UAlonso de Salazar y Frías, wandixelela igama lakhe xa sasihlangana kwinyanga ephelileyo, ngexesha lokudlula kwam kwidolophu yam, iZugarramurdi, ndisiya emadlelweni kwithafa lase-Ebro.

Le yindlela andibhatala ngayo ngoncedo endimnike lona ngobusuku endimfumene egula. Inqwelo yakhe yamiswa embindini wendlela kwaye wayoyame ngomthi we-beech, enesiyezi kwaye ebolile. Ndamphilisa, ndamnika indawo yokuhlala, ukuphumla kunye nokutya. Namhlanje udlulile phambi kwale parade ihlazo yabagwetyiweyo, nangomoya wakhe womkhululi omkhulu. Uye eqongeni, apho azokwehla khona ihashe lakhe, athathe indawo yakhe kwaye amamele izivakalisi zethu phambi kokubulawa nokohlwaywa.

Andinawo namandla okumbiza ngegama lakhe, ndicela inceba. Andizange ndihambe phambili phakathi kwalomhlambi womntu oye warhoxa kwisiphelo sakhe esibulalayo. Sizulazula kalusizi, ukuphefumla kwam kunzima ukuxubana nalawo maqabane am angonwabanga, abanye bethotywa bekhala phambi kwam kwaye bekhalaza bekhwaza emva kwam. Ndinyamezela umsindo wam, usizi lwam, ukuphelelwa lithemba okanye nantoni na endiziva, konke kusongelwe kukuhlazeka.

Ukuqokelelwa kweemvakalelo kundenza ndilibale icoroza elihlazo elisuka entlokweni yam liye emhlabeni. Ngokukhawuleza umkhweli oxhobileyo uzixakekisa ngokubeka phezu kwam kwakhona, ngequbuliso, evuya luluntu.

Usahamba ngokwamaqela, umoya obandayo kaNovemba usika kwilaphu elinzima le-sanbenito, upholisa ukubila kovalo oluphuma ngamandla. Ndijonge phezulu kumnqamlezo oluhlaza we-Inquisition eNgcwele, ndathi, ndicenga uThixo ukuba andixolele izono zam, ukuba ndakhe ndazenza.

Ndithandaza kuThixo njengomtsha U-Ecce Homo othwala ityala labanye, eneentloni kunye nentiyo yabo. Andazi ukuba ngubani owayengumntu othembekileyo owayethetha ngam malunga nokutyholwa endikuvileyo kwisimangalo sam, andinakuze ndicinge ukuba ubuncinci babantu bakowethu buza kuhamba phi.

Kudala, abagunyazisi be-Inquisition babejikeleza iZugarramurdi kunye nezinye iidolophu ezikufuphi, beqokelela ulwazi ngenxa yezigqibo ezazibanjelwe emiqolombeni yedolophu yam. Ngendandicinga ukuba emva kokuba ndibamonele kakhulu abantu belizwe, ndingahamba, ndiyindoda ekhutheleyo nenempumelelo. Xa ndandithinjiwe ndafunda yonke into eyayithethwe ngam.

Ngokolwimi olubi olundityhaleleyo apha, mna ngokwam ndakhokelela iigusha neebhokhwe zam ukuba andazi ukuba loluphi uhlobo lonqulo lobusathana. Ndaye ndafunda nokuba yaziwa njani ukuba usebenzisa i-alembic ukuhambisa imimoya ngamayeza angaqondakaliyo. Esona sityholo sokwenene kukuba bendihlala ndifunda iincwadi, nangona ingezizo izicatshulwa eziqalekisiweyo.

Xa ndandisengumntwana, umfundisi omdala wandifundisa ngokufunda, kwaye ukuze ndikonwabele ukuzifundisa ngemfihlakalo iSan Juan de la Cruz okanye iSanta Teresa, ndaba nelungelo lokufunda kubulumko baseSanto Tomás kwaye ndavuya iincwadi zikaPaul Paul. Ayinamsebenzi ukuba uninzi lwezinto endizifundileyo zazingezizo kwaphela. Wayekwazi ukufunda, ukuze abe ligqwirha.

Izityholo zabantu bam zaguqulwa zaba yimibuzo ekhokelayo, ethandabuzekayo, ukungakhathali akukho lixabiso kwinkundla yokuNcina amakholwa.

Ngaba anizenzi izihombiso enikhuthaza ngazo abantu? Hayi, konke endikwenzayo ndisebenzisa ubulumko bezinyanya ukukhupha amayeza endalo Akuyonyaniso na ukuba iinkomo zakho wazenzela amadini? Ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, ndancama igusha, kodwa yayikukubhiyozela iintsuku ezinkulu nosapho lwam Kwenzeka njani ukuba umfundisi onjengawe akwazi ukufunda nokubhala? Umfundisi wandifundisa ngokuchanekileyo, xa wayesengumntwana wabona umdla wam kwiileta.

Kuzo zonke izinto endandizikhanyele, nakwizityholo zam ezalandelayo, isabhokhwe sabuyela emqolo, ukuze ndithethe inyani njengokuba befuna ukuyiva. Ekugqibeleni ndavakalisa ukuba imixube yam kunye nemixube yasikelelwa nguThixo wam, uSathana, owayebingelela ngezilwanyana ngembeko yakhe, nokuba kwimiqholo yam yesiqhelo ndafunda iincwadi eziqalekisiweyo kwindima yam njengobugqwirha. Isabhokhwe, ukungalali kunye noloyiko zenza ubungqina obomeleleyo. Abambalwa abagcina inyaniso inyanisekileyo kwiziseko zayo ezingashukumiyo bayatshabalala emhadini.

Mhlawumbi bekufanele ndizivumele ndibulawe. Iqhina lomsindo ngoku lihamba ngesisu sam xa ndicinga ngombuzo wokugqibela, endiye ndaphendula nawo ngokuqinisekileyo emva kokukhupha umqolo wam wonke ngokusekwe kumakhulu okwala. Bafuna ukuba ndiyamkele into yokuba ndibulele umntwana njengedini kumtyholi, isimangalo endandingazange ndicinge ukuba kungakho mntu onokusibeka ityala kum. Ndizamile nje ukumnceda, inkwenkwe ilele ngumkhuhlane onamandla ebhedini yakhe, ndizamile ukunciphisa lo mkhuhlane ngomxube wecorolla yepoppy, nettle kunye nelinden, iyeza lasekhaya ebelisebenze amatyeli amaninzi kum. Ngelishwa le ngelosi ihlwempuzekileyo yayigula kakhulu kwaye ayifikanga ngengomso.

Ndijonge phezulu, ndiqinisekile ukuba into ebalulekileyo kukuba umnqamlezo uyayazi inyani. Sele ndinosindiso lwabo, kuba ndingumKristu olungileyo, amaqabane am analo nosindiso kuba abonisa izono ezingalunganga, kwanalo lonke ihlokondiba elisirhangqileyo likhululekile ezimpazamo ngenxa yokungazi kwabo. Aboni kuphela aba bagwebi beNkundla yokuNcina Amakholwa. Izono zam ezincinci zezomalusi ohluphekileyo, ezakhe zezizokugwetywa ngokuqatha nguThixo, onqulo abaluguqule lwaba lihlelo lokwenyani lamagqwirha.

Ngaphandle komnqamlezo, isibhakabhaka sivula ngaphezulu kweLogroño. Ukuphakama kwayo kundenza ndizive ndincinci, umsindo wam uyanyibilika ube yinto ebandayo kwaye ngenye yeenyembezi zam zokugqibela ndicinga ukuba oku kuya kwenzeka ngokuncwina okufutshane. Ndinokholo olungakumbi kunaye nawuphi na umfundisi ondingqongileyo, ndibuyela kukuthembela kuThixo kunye nethemba lobomi obungunaphakade ezinxulunyaniswa ziincwadi ezingcwele.

Ndiqala ukunuka umsi, phantsi kwembono yesibhakabhaka esisezulwini kwaye ndicinga ngaphambili ngendlela umgwinti abeke ngayo umlilo kunye netotshi yakhe ejikeleze enye yeekholamu. Kulapho ndizakubuyiselwa khona kumthetho welizwe. Kodwa akusekho loyiko, amadangatye okuqala awandoyikisi kodwa aqala ukushukuma okomlilo wokucoca, ophenjelelwa yimvuthu yomoya opholileyo. Kushiyeke ixesha elincinane lokunditya ngaphambi kwamawaka abantu.

Ndijonge macala omabini. Ngaphezulu kweentloko zabantu ungabona iindawo ezele izidwangube kunye neenkosi zilungele umboniso othabathekisayo we-auto-da-fe, umbhiyozo wenkululeko, umbono wokufa. Kodwa abekho kuphela, uThixo ukhona, kwaye uzibonakalisa esecaleni lethu, esamkela esibhakabhakeni esivulekileyo.

Ewe, phambi kwesimo esimnyama seNkundla yokuNcina Amakholwa, isibhakabhaka sikhanya ngakumbi kunanini na ngaphambili, sinxiba uLogroño kunye nokubengezela kwayo kwegolide, kukhanyisa ukukhanya kwayo okudlula ngefestile, okwenza indlela yayo ipase iipaseji zamasango ale agora inkulu.

Ndigcina ubuso bam buphezulu kwaye ndinika isihlwele uncumo oluzelwe lunyanisekile ngaphakathi kwam, olungenantlonelo okanye uloyiko. Andililo igqwirha, andizukubaleka ngomzuzu wokugqibela ndibhengeza umtshayelo wam. Ndiza kuvuka emva kokuba umlilo utshise umzimba wam, ndiza kufikelela esibhakabhakeni esiluhlaza. Umphefumlo wam uya kubhabha ukhululekile kumthwalo weli hlabathi.

Thixo oyingcwele! UmSamariya olungileyo watyholwa ngokuba uligqwirha. Umhlaba ujonge phantsi. Lo malusi ulihlwempu, endisandula ukumfumanisa emva kweGreen Cross yesigwebo, nguDomingo Subeldegui, ndadibana naye ngethuba kutshanje. Ndandihamba ngenqwelomoya ndisiya eLogroño kwaye, kwakusele iiyure zokuhamba, ndayalela umqhubi ukuba amise. Inokuba bandincedile ndehla, kuba yonke into ibindijikeleza. Ndilolule uhambo kangangoko kunokwenzeka, kodwa isisu sam besele sithethile ngokwaneleyo. Imvakwemini yayisiwa kwaye umzimba wam wawungenakuma kwenye iligi ungaphumlanga.

Kwimeko yam yokungahambi kakuhle, ndikholelwa nokuba ndicinga isandi seentsimbi zeenkomo mgama, kodwa yayingengombono wentelekelelo, umhlambi nomalusi wabo babonakala kwakamsinya. Wazazisa njengoDomingo Subeldegui kwaye wandinika incam ye-chamomile elungisa isisu sam. Ndamxelela ukuba ndingumfundisi, ndaza ndamfihlela ukuba ndiza kuya kwesi sixeko, ndiqala ukubizwa njengeNkundla Yokuncina Amakholwa eBukhosini baseNavarra. Ingqiqo yam yayifanelekile kuba ityala lam lokuqala lalizele zizinto, akukho nto ingako kwaye akukho nto ingaphantsi kokuvavanya amalungiselelo ale auto-da-fe, awayesele eqokelela ulwazi kuyo iminyaka eliqela.

Njengokuba ubusuku babuba mnyama kuthi, uDomingo Subeldegui wandimema kunye nabancedisi bam ukuba siphumle kwigumbi elikufuphi, saza safumana intlanganiso yethu ngokuhlwa okumnandi kushushu umlilo. Sasilahlekile ehlathini elinzulu, kodwa naloo mfundisi ulumkileyo, ndathetha ngokungathi ndiphambi kobhishophu owayehleli esihlalweni sakhe.

Sithetha ixesha elide kunzima. Imfundiso yenkolo, amasiko, ifilosofi, imfuyo, imithetho, zonke ezi yayizindawo zentetho yakhe. Ndikhululekile ke bendisecaleni kwakhe mhlawumbi indibano inokundithuthuzela nangaphezulu komxube awulungiselele isisu sam. Ngokuqinisekileyo wayethetha ngcono kunompheki. Nangona ndizamile ukugcina iifom kunye nemigama, kuye kwafuneka ndinikezele kubungqina bokuba ndisePalamente ngokulingana.

Ndiziva ndikhathazeka kakhulu xa ndikhumbula zonke iinkcukacha zobo busuku, kuba umamkeli wam endle ehlathini uza kutshiswa namhlanje, njengomlumbi. Ndilifundile igama lakhe kwizimangalo kwaye ndacinga ukuba lelakhe kuphela igama. Ngoku ndibonile ngamehlo am ukuba uya phambili phakathi komtyholwa, andikholwanga. Ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo uburharha kunye nokunyelisa abantu belizwe lakhe kumkhokelele kwintshabalalo.

Kodwa okona kubaluleke kakhulu, andikholelwa nakwezinye iimeko zobugqwirha. Ngeli xesha lifutshane bendidlala indima yam kwiNkundla yokuNcina Amakholwa, sele ndicinga ukuba sidlulile kumda wobulungisa bezenkolo, singena ukucima umnqweno wokulawula namandla, sibethelela ukholo kunye noloyiko ngokungathi zombini ziyinto enye .

Ndiyavuma ukuba amaKristu amatsha angamaJuda, aqhubeka nokugcina iiSabatha, kunye nabaSilamsi abawexukileyo bohlwaywa. Ngaphezu koko, ndangena kwiNkundla yamaRoma yokuNcina amakholwa ndijonga isohlwayo esifanelekileyo. Phambi kwethu bonke bayaguquka, bafumana imivumbo yabo kwaye bathunyelwa entolongweni, okanye babhexe iinqanawa, ngaphandle kwentlawulo. Ukufundiswa kwabantu ekukhanyeni kobuKristu kubonakala kufanelekile. Kodwa yonke le autos-da-fé, enamadini abantu ayinto ecekisekayo.

Kodwa akukho nto ingako ndinokuyenza namhlanje ngaphambi kokuba kuvote, ngokuchasene nentando yam, kaGqirha Alonso Becerra Holguín noMnu Juan Valle Albarado. Zombini zigcina ukuqiniseka kwazo ngokuqinileyo ngokuzenzekelayo kwale da-fe-fe. Inkundla sele isiphumezile isigwebo.

Ukungcungcuthekiswa okwenziwe kwaba bantu bahluphekileyo akonelanga, abahlanu kubo sele befele eziseleni, bebethwa ngabaphuli-mthetho bethu. Amaxhoba athi, ngehlazo elikhulu, aya kuthi ekugqibeleni agqibe ngamathambo abo ngomlilo. Inkqubo yokuncinwa ifuna okungakumbi nangakumbi, isenzo sikarhulumente, ukubonakaliswa kwamandla kwizazela. I-autos-da-fé iye yaba ngumzekelo ocacileyo wokugcwala kwabantu.

Idlula ngokunyanisekileyo kum. Andibuboni ubudlelwane phakathi kokuzinikela kwethu kunye nobuvuvu. Ndiyaqonda kancinci ukuba, abantu abafana nathi, abaqeqeshiweyo, abaphumeleleyo kwimithetho kunye noMthetho, sicinga ukuba kuchanekile ukulinganisa ubomi babantu abaninzi ngokusekwe kubungqina babantu abaphazamisekileyo, aboyikayo okanye abanomona nje. Ukuya kuthi kamva kuphume iingxelo ezifanayo nenyaniso malunga nenyama evulekileyo.

Batyholwa ngokuvuna okungalunganga, ngemibhiyozo yenyama eneentombi ezingenatyala, iziyunguma kunye nemikhuba emibi engathethekiyo, yokubhabha ezidolophini kubusuku obumnyama. Batyholwa ngokubulala abantwana! Njengokuba kunjalo kumhlobo wam ongumfundisi ohluphekileyo.

Ndiyazi ukuba uDomingo Subeldegui ngekhe abenakho ukuphambuka okunje, ngokwesizathu sakhe kunye neenqobo zakhe zokuziphatha endazibonelayo ngobo busuku ehlathini. Ukuba kuphela kukhunjulwa lo mfundisi ungathathi ntweni, endinokumenzela nto encinci xa izityholo ezimbi zijinga phezu kwakhe, ndiza kuphanda ndicoce igama lakhe nelomnye umtyholwa.

Ndizakufumana umthetho wobabalo, ixesha liyakubuyisa igama lakho, hayi ubomi bakho. Kodwa ukungqinelana nesiqu sam kuya kufuneka ndenze okungaphezulu, ndiza kuba nakho ukutshintsha konke oku, ngeempikiswano ezinamandla. Ndizakufumana ubungqina obungenakuphikiswa bokukhuthaza ukupheliswa kwesigwebo sentambo sabanye abaninzi abamsulwa njengale.

Ngelishwa, le auto-da-fe ayinakubuyela umva. Andinayo enye indlela ngaphandle kokunyamezela ukufundwa kwezivakalisi ezikhishwe kwisifuba esithwele i-acémila.

Ukuba ngenene bagwetyiwe: UDomingo Subeldegui, Petri de Ioan Gobena, María de Arburu, María de Chachute, Graciana Iarra noMaría Bastan de Borda babengamagqwirha, ukuba ngenene aba bahlanu abaza kufa babenamandla abo, Bhabha ngaphandle kokuthandabuza ngaphezulu kweentloko zethu, ubaleka ukufa. Akukho nanye kwezi eya kwenzeka, nangona ndiyathemba ukuba ubuncinci, emva kokubandezeleka komlilo, imiphefumlo yabo iya kubhabha simahla.

Qaphela: Ngo-1614, enkosi kwingxelo ebanzi ka-Alonso de Salazar y Frías, iBhunga le-Supreme ne-General Inquisition lakhupha umyalelo wokuba kupheliswe ukuzingelwa kwamagqwirha kuyo yonke iSpain.