Miyoyo yamoto -Amfiti aku Zugarramurdi-

Kuseri kwa kavalo wake, wofunsayo anangondiyang'ana modabwitsa. Ndamuwonapo nkhope yake kwinakwake. Nthawi zonse ndimaloweza nkhope za anthu. Zachidziwikire, ngati ndingasiyanitse mutu wanga ng'ombe imodzi ndi imodzi. Koma pakadali pano ndizovuta kuti ndikumbukire, ndatsekedwa ndi mantha. Ndimayenda mumtsinje waukulu pambuyo pa Santa Cruz Verde de la Inquisición, ndikulowa m'bwalo lalikulu mumzinda wa Logroño.

Kudzera mukolido yomwe idapangidwa pakati pa unyinji, ndimakumana ndikuwona kwakanthawi kochepa komwe kumabweretsa chidani ndi mantha. Gulu lankhanza kwambiri limatiponyera mkodzo ndi zipatso zowola. Chodabwitsa ndichakuti, nkhope yokhayo yachifundo idakhala ya nkhope yodziwika ya wofunsa mafunso. Atangondiwona, adakwiyitsa nkhope, ndipo ndidazindikira kukhumudwa kwake pondipeza ndili pamzere kuti ndikwere.

Ndikumbukira kale kuti ndi ndani! Alonso de Salazar y Frías, iye mwini adandiuza dzina lake pomwe tidakumana mwezi watha, ndikubisala kuchokera ku tawuni yanga, Zugarramurdi, kupita kumalo odyetserako ziweto ku Ebro.

Umu ndi momwe amandilipilira thandizo lomwe ndinamupatsa usiku womwe ndidamupeza akudwala. Chonyamulira chake chidayimitsidwa pakati pamsewu ndipo adatsamira thunthu la mtengo wa beech, akuchita chizungulire komanso wowola. Ndinamuchiritsa, ndinampatsa malo ogona, kupumula komanso kumuthandiza. Lero wadutsa patsogolo pa chiwonetsero chochititsa manyazi chija cha owonongedwayo, ndi mpweya wake wowombola wamkulu. Wapita papulatifomu, komwe amatsitsa kavalo wake, nakhala pamalo ake abwino ndikumvera ziganizo zathu asanakaphedwe.

Ndilibe ngakhale mphamvu yomutchula dzina lake, kupempha chifundo. Sindikadapitilira pakati pa gulu la anthu ili lomwe lidaphedwa. Tikuyenda momvetsa chisoni, kupuma kwanga kolimbikira kumasokonezedwa ndi anzanga osauka, ena manyazi akung'ung'udza pamaso panga kumang'amba moyo wanga ndikulimbikira kulira mofuula kumbuyo. Ndimapirira mkwiyo wanga, chisoni changa, kutaya mtima kwanga kapena chilichonse chomwe ndimamva, zonse zitakutidwa ndi manyazi osagona.

Kudzikundikira kwamalingaliro kumandipangitsa kuiwala coroza chochititsa manyazi chomwe chimatsetsereka kuchokera pamutu panga kupita pansi. Mwansanga woperekeza wokhala ndi zida amatanganidwa ndikundiyikanso, mwadzidzidzi, ndikusangalatsidwa ndi anthu.

Kuyendabe m'magulu, mphepo yozizira ya Novembala imadutsa nsalu yolimba ya sanbenito, kuziziritsa thukuta lamantha lomwe limatuluka kwambiri. Ndimayang'ana pamwamba pamtanda wobiriwira wa Holy Inquisition ndipo, ndikusunthidwa, ndikupempha Mulungu kuti andikhululukire machimo anga, ngati ndidazichitapo.

Ndikupemphera kwa Mulungu ngati watsopano Ecce Homo amene amakhala ndi mlandu wa ena, ndi manyazi awo ndi chidani chawo. Sindikudziwa yemwe anali wachinsinsi yemwe adanena za ine zomwe ndamva pomunamizira, sindingaganizire kutalika kwa zomwe nzika zanga zipite.

Kwa nthawi yayitali, oyenerera a Inquisition anali pafupi ndi Zugarramurdi ndi matauni ena oyandikana nawo, akusonkhanitsa zidziwitso kuchokera kuma coven omwe amati anali m'mapanga a tawuni yanga. Ndikadaganiza kuti nditasilira komanso kudedwa anthu akudziko, ndikhoza kupita, wogwira ntchito molimbika komanso olemera. Nditagwidwa ndidaphunzira zonse zomwe zidanenedwa za ine.

Malinga ndi malilime oyipa omwe andikankhira pano, ine ndekha ndidayendetsa nkhosa ndi mbuzi zanga kuti sindikudziwa kupembedza kwa satana kotani. Ndinaphunziranso momwe zidadziwika kuti amagwiritsa ntchito cholembera kuthira mizimu ndi zitsamba zodabwitsa. Mlandu wokhawo womwe ndikuneneza ndikuti ndimakonda kuwerenga mabuku, ngakhale sizinali mawu otembereredwa kwenikweni.

Ndili mwana, wansembe wina wachikulire ankandiphunzitsa kuwerenga, kuti ndizisangalala ndikadziphunzitsa ndi zamatsenga San Juan de la Cruz kapena Santa Teresa, ndinali ndi mwayi wophunzira kuchokera ku nzeru za Santo Tomás ndipo ndidakondwera makalata a Paulo Woyera. Zilibe kanthu kuti kuwerenga kwanga konse sikunali kwachinyengo konse. Amatha kuwerenga, kuti athe kukhala mfiti.

Zoneneza za anthu anga zomwe zidasandulika kukhala mafunso otsogola, okhazikika, osasamala sichinthu chofunikira kukhothi la Inquisition.

Kodi simumakonza zopangira zomwe mumakonda amatsenga? Ayi, zonse zomwe ndimachita ndimagwiritsa ntchito nzeru za makolo anga kuti atenge zachilengedwe kuchokera kuzinthu zachilengedwe Sizoona kuti mudagwiritsa ntchito nyama zanu popereka nsembe zachikunja? Mosakayikira, ndinapereka nkhosa, koma chinali kukondwerera masiku akuluwo ndi banja langa Zatheka bwanji kuti m'busa ngati inu mumatha kuwerenga ndi kulemba? Wansembe wina anandiphunzitsa ndendende atawona chidwi changa m'makalata ndili mwana.

Kudzudzula kwanga konse, ndikudzinenera kwanga, chikwapu chidabwera kumbuyo kwanga, kuti ndikalankhule zowona momwe amafunira kuti amve. Pamapeto pake ndidalengeza kuti zokometsera zanga ndi zokometsera zidadalitsidwa ndi Mulungu wanga, Satana, yemwe adapereka nyama kuti amupatse ulemu, ndikuti m'makola anga wamba ndimawerenga mabuku otembereredwa pantchito yanga yamatsenga. Chikwapu, kusowa tulo komanso mantha zimapangitsa umboni wolimba kwambiri. Ochepera omwe amasungabe chowonadi pamiyeso yawo yosasunthika amawonongeka m'mndende.

Mwina ndikanadzilola kuti inenso ndiphedwe. Khungu la mkwiyo tsopano likuyenda m'mimba mwanga poganiza za funso lotsiriza, pomwe ndidayankhanso motsimikiza nditasenda msana wanga wonse kutengera kukana mazana. Amafuna kuti ndivomereze kuti ndapha mwana ngati nsembe kwa satana, mlandu womwe sindinaganize kuti wina angandineneze. Ndinangoyesera kuti ndimuthandize, mnyamatayo anali atagona ndi malungo kwambiri pakama pake, ndinayesa kuchepetsa malungo amenewo ndi chisakanizo cha corolla wa poppy, nettle ndi linden, mankhwala apanyumba omwe adandigwirira ntchito kangapo. Mwatsoka mngelo wosauka uja anali kudwala kwambiri ndipo sanafike tsiku lotsatira.

Ndimayang'ana mmwamba, ndikukhulupirira kuti chofunikira ndichakuti mtanda umadziwa chowonadi. Ndili nawo kale chipulumutso chawo, chifukwa ndine Mkhristu wabwino, anzanga nawonso ali ndi chipulumutso chifukwa amatulutsa machimo osayenera, ngakhale gulu lonse lomwe latizungulira ndilopanda zolakwa chifukwa chakusadziwa kwawo. Ochimwa okha ndi omwe akupha Khoti Lalikulu la Chilango. Machimo anga ang'onoang'ono ndi a m'busa wosauka, ake ndi omwe adzaweruzidwe mwankhanza ndi Mulungu, amene kupembedza kwawo adasandutsa gulu lowona la mfiti.

Pambuyo pa mtanda, thambo limatsegukira Logroño. Kukula kwake kumandipangitsa kumva kuti ndine wocheperako, mkwiyo wanga umasungunuka ndikumazizira ndipo ndi m'modzi mwa misozi yanga yomaliza ndikuganiza kuti izi zikuyenera kuchitika mopumira pang'ono. Ndikukhulupirira kwambiri kuposa atsogoleri achipembedzo ena onse, ndimabwerera kudalira Mulungu komanso chiyembekezo chamoyo wosatha chomwe mabuku opatulika amafotokoza.

Ndimayamba kununkhiza utsi, ndikuwona zakuthambo ndipo ndimaganizira momwe wakupha adayatsira moto ndi tochi yake kuzungulira mzati umodzi. Apa ndipomwe ndidzabwezeretsedwe kubungwe lamilandu. Koma kulibenso mantha, malawi oyamba sindiopseza koma amayamba kuyenda ngati moto woyeretsa, wowombedwa ndi kamphepo kayaziyazi. Pali kanthawi kochepa koti kandidye pamaso pa anthu zikwizikwi.

Ine ndimayang'ana pozungulira, ku mbali zonse. Pamwamba pamitu ya anthu mutha kuwona kale maimidwe odzaza olemekezeka ndi ambuye okonzekera chiwonetsero chosangalatsa cha auto-da-fé, chikondwerero cha chiwombolo, chonamizira imfa. Koma sikuti amapezeka kokha, Mulungu amapezekanso, ndipo akudziwonetsa yekha kuti ali mbali yathu, kutilandira kumwamba.

Inde, pamaso pa malingaliro amdima a Khothi Lalikulu, thambo limawala kuposa kale, kuvala Logroño ndimayendedwe ake agolide, kuwalitsa kuwala kwake komwe kumadutsa m'mazenera, komwe kumadutsa m'makonde azipata za agora wamkuluyu.

Ndimakweza nkhope yanga pamwamba ndipo ndimapatsa gulu kumwetulira komwe kumabadwa moona mtima mkati mwanga, kopanda kunyoza kapena mantha. Ine sindine mfiti, sindidzathawa nthawi yomaliza nditadula tsache langa. Ndidzuka moto ukawotcha thupi langa, ndikafika kumwamba. Moyo wanga udzauluka mwaulemu padziko lapansi.

Mulungu Woyera! Msamariya wachifundo adanenedwa kuti ndi mfiti. Dziko lapansi mozondoka. Abusa osaukawa, omwe ndidangowapeza kumbuyo kwa Green Cross ya omwe aweruzidwayo, ndi Domingo Subeldegui, ndidakumana naye mwamwayi posachedwapa. Ndinali paulendo wapamtunda kupita ku Logroño ndipo, kutatsala maola kuti apite, ndinalamula driver kuti ayime. Ayenera kuti andithandiza, chifukwa zonse zimandizungulira. Ndinali nditatambasula ulendo wautali momwe ndingathere, koma mimba yanga inali itanena kale zokwanira. Masana anali kugwa ndipo thupi langa silimatha kuyimirira ligi ina popanda kupumula.

Ndikudwala, ndimakhulupirira kuti ndimayerekezera kulira kwa ma ng'ombe patali, koma sizinali zongoyerekeza, gulu lankhosa ndi m'busa wawo posakhalitsa zidawonekera. Adadziwonetsa kuti ndi Domingo Subeldegui ndipo adandipatsa phala la chamomile lomwe limabwezeretsa m'mimba mwanga. Ndinamuuza kuti ndinali m'busa, ndipo ndinamubisira kuti ndikupita mumzinda uno, ndikuyamba kukhala Inquisitor wa Utumwi wa Kingdom of Navarra. Kuzindikira kwanga kunali koyenera chifukwa vuto langa loyamba linali lodzaza ndi zinthu zambiri, osatinso zowunikira zokonzekera auto-da-fe, zomwe anali atatenga kale zaka zambiri.

Usiku wamdima utatigwera, Domingo Subeldegui adandiitanira ine ndi omwe adandithandizira kuti tikapume munyumba yapafupi, ndikupangitsa msonkhano wathu kukhala wamadzulo wabwino kutentha. Tinasochera m'nkhalango yakuya, koma ndi mbusa wanzeru uja, ndimacheza ngati ndili pamaso pa bishopu atakhala pampando wake.

Timalankhula nthawi yayitali. Ziphunzitso zaumulungu, miyambo, nzeru, ziweto, malamulo, zonsezi zinali mbali za nkhani yake. Chifukwa chake ndimakhala momasuka ndinali naye pafupi kuti mwina msonkhanowo ungandilimbikitse kuposa chakumwa chomwe adandikonzera m'mimba. Amalankhula bwino kuposa kuphika. Ngakhale ndimayesetsa kusunga mafomu ndi mtunda, ndimayenera kupereka umboni kuti ndine nyumba yamalamulo yofanana.

Ndikumva kukhumudwa kwambiri pokumbukira tsatanetsatane wa usikuwo, chifukwa amene akundilandira m'nkhalango adzawotchedwa lero, ngati wamatsenga. Ndidawerenga dzina lake pamilandu ndipo ndimaganiza kuti limangokhala la namesake. Tsopano popeza ndawona ndi maso anga kuti akupita patsogolo pakati pa omwe akuimbidwa mlanduwo, sindinakhulupirire. Mosakayikira mkwiyo ndi kunyoza anthu amtundu wake zamutsogolera ku chiwonongeko.

Koma choyipitsitsa, ndikuti sindimakhulupirira milandu ina ya ufiti. M'nthawi yochepa yomwe ndakhala ndikutenga nawo gawo pa Khoti Lalikulu la Malamulo, ndimalingalira kale kuti tapitilira malire azachilungamo mwazipembedzo zathu, kulowa kuti tithetse chikhumbo chowalamulira ndi mphamvu, ndikupangitsa chikhulupiriro ndi mantha ngati kuti zonse zinali zofanana .

Ndingavomereze kuti Akhristu achiyuda atsopano, omwe akupitilizabe kusunga Sabata, komanso ma Moor ampatuko alangidwa. Komanso, ndinalowa m'Khoti Lalikulu la Malamulo poganizila za chilango choyenera kwa anthu oyipawa. Pamaso pathu onse amalapa, amalandira zikwapu zawo ndipo amatumizidwa kundende, kapena kupalasa ngalawa, popanda malipiro. Kulowetsedwa kwa anthu ku kuwala kwachikhristu kumawoneka kofunikira. Koma zonsezi za autos-da-fé, ndi nsembe zaumunthu, ndizonyansa.

Koma pali zochepa zomwe ndingachite lero mavoti asanachitike, mosemphana ndi chifuniro changa, a Dr. Alonso Becerra Holguín ndi Mr. Juan Valle Albarado. Onsewa amakhala otsimikiza motsimikiza za auto-da-fe iyi. Khotilo lidapereka chigamulo kale.

Kuzunzidwa kumene kwachitika kwa anthu osaukawa sikokwanira, asanu mwa iwo adafera kale kundende, akumenyedwa ndi omwe adatipatsa chilango. Ozunzidwa omwe, chifukwa chamanyazi kwambiri, nawonso adzatha ndi mafupa awo. Kufufuzako kumafuna zochulukirapo, kuchitapo kanthu pagulu, kuwonetsedwa kwamphamvu pachikumbumtima. Ma autos-da-fé tsopano ndi chitsanzo chowoneka bwino chakuwononga kwamunthu.

Mowona mtima amandimenya. Sindikuwona ubale wapakati pa kudzipereka kwathu ndi zamkhutu izi. Sindikumvetsetsa kwenikweni kuti, anthu monga ife, ophunzitsidwa, omaliza maphunziro ndi malamulo, timaganiza kuti ndizolondola kuyeza miyoyo ya anthu ambiri kutengera maumboni a anthu omwe asokonezeka, amantha kapena osirira. Kuti pambuyo pake pakhale mawu ofanana ndi chowonadi chokhudza nyama zowonekera.

Amanenedwa za zokolola zoyipa, zikondwerero zakuthupi ndi anamwali osalakwa, madyerero ndi zoyipa zosaneneka, zouluka m'matawuni usiku wamdima. Amawaneneranso kuti amapha ana! Monga momwe zilili ndi bwenzi langa losauka m'busa.

Ndikudziwa kuti Domingo Subeldegui sangakhale ndi vuto lotere, chifukwa cha malingaliro ake ndi malingaliro ake omwe ine ndidawona usiku womwewo m'nkhalango. Ndikadakhala kuti ndikumbukira m'busa wosauka uyu, yemwe sindingamuchitire zochepa akamamuimba milandu yoopsa, ndifufuza ndikutsuka dzina lake ndi la yemwe akumuneneza.

Ndipeza lamulo lachisomo, nthawi ibwezeretsa mbiri yanu, osati moyo wanu. Koma kuti ndikhale wogwirizana ndi ine ndekha ndiyenera kuchita zochulukirapo, ndizitha kusintha zonsezi, ndi zifukwa zomveka. Ndipeza umboni wosatsutsika womwe ndimalimbikitsira kuchotsedwa kwa chilango chonyongedwa kwa ambiri osalakwa ngati awa.

Tsoka ilo, auto-da-fe iyi siyibwerera mmbuyo. Ndilibe njira ina koma kupirira sto stoically kuwerenga kwa ziganizo zochokera pachifuwa zomwe acémila amanyamula.

Ngati oweruzidwadi: Domingo Subeldegui, Petri de Ioan Gobena, María de Arburu, María de Chachute, Graciana Iarra ndi María Bastan de Borda anali mfiti, ngati awa asanu omwe adzafe ali ndi mphamvu zomwe akuti adaziwona, akadatero kuuluka mosazengereza pamwamba pamutu pathu, kuthawa imfa. Palibe chilichonse cha izi chomwe chidzachitike, ngakhale ndikhulupilira kuti, moto ukazunzika, miyoyo yawo idzauluka mwaulere.

Dziwani izi: Mu 1614, chifukwa cha lipoti lalikulu la Alonso de Salazar y Frías, Council of the Supreme and General Inquisition idapereka lamulo lothetsa kusaka mfiti ku Spain konse.